Tuesday, November 28, 2017

The Cost In Not Believing In My Abilities Because of my Disabilities


This is what brain damage sounds like, motherfucker!

It took a lot of physical therapy for me to get to the point at which I could play heavy metal guitar.

The cost of lacking self-confidence might have cost me a career in the business, but who's to say what could have happened had I even made the attempt to be a lead guitar player at fifteen-years-old.  I knew that my best friend, who was the lead guitarist wanted me to learn, probably so that we could do harmonies...... but I lacked the self-confidence to do it.

The main problem was that I struggled with my fingering in 1985 and 1986.  I didn't think that I could spread my fingers so wide across the fretboard.  However, you can clearly see in this video that I am able to, and for that, I apologize to my friend, as he had more confidence in my ability to do this than I did.

My best friend worked with me on my fingering, but I just experienced so much difficulty with it that I stuck with barre chords.

Who knows?  We could have opened for Kiss like we had hoped.  We might have toured with Ronnie James Dio or Iron Maiden.

We could have played at one of the Monsters of Rock festivals at Donington, England
We could have done a lot of if we even landed a record deal in the first place, in which we were in competition with hundreds, maybe even thousands of bands for that.

Do I blame myself?  Partially, but not as much as I once did.  I was not on Paxil at the time, so the social anxiety was a bit more than I could handle.  All I remember is that I was a crazy motherfucker the few times we did hit the stage together.  I just let myself go.

Don’t ever give up if you suffer from brain damage.  You could do things that you and your doctors never thought possible-my doctors didn't even expect me to live, much less play heavy metal guitar.

You're better than you think you are, so go out and prove that to everyone else-then tell them to go fuck themselves.

This is what brain damage sounds like, motherfucker!.wmv

This is what brain damage sounds like, motherfucker!.wmv

Screaming At Grassroots Democrats in America

Since you are doing things the stupid way (the same thing that didn’t work last time, and you know what it is.  You do it every day on Facebook, but make ZERO IMPACT) I’m turning my Millennium Falcon around and I’m attacking that Imperial starship head-on.

I understand you don’t get the EMPIRE STRIKES BACK reference, but the world looks on in horror as you allow this American Hitler to destabilize everything through your inaction and your cowardice.

Voting doesn’t work anymore, nor do petitions.  Get that through your heads.  MUCH OF the money the RNC acquires is most likely from governments like Saudi Arabia, so anyone who truly believes that campaign finance reform will benefit us is more naive than a sweet 16.  The only reason I
vote now is for solely for the purposes maintaining the facade, but you know as well as I that Republicans are given “close” elections, yet all you do is cry.

It’s not that all politicians are crooks.  It’s because you allow them to steal elections and you refuse to engage in an uprising of any kind.

Remember that demonstrations don’t work anymore.  The enemy just lets us yell for a few hours until we get tired, and then they resume the act of plundering us.

Don’t count on Bernie Sanders, either.  You either PHYSICALLY RESIST what Trump is doing to us, or you take the shaft.

Don’t blame Dianne Feinstein.  Don’t blame Debbie Wasserman-Schultz.


If you don’t know what I’m doing, then we Democrats are in deeper trouble than I thought-and your self-pity is even worse than the gerrymandering the Republicans engage in, because all you do is bend over for them.


What you’re doing now help our candidates.

The world depends on US, so quit fucking up!  Vote with your HEADS, not your HEARTS!

You saw the results last year.