Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Back to the Beginning

After careful consideration, I have decided to leave the College of Education and return to psychology in order to seek a Master's degree in the discipline.

The tragedy is that this could have been avoided had a person in Technical Support not been an asshole to me, as I had tried to describe my brain injury to the motherfucker, and all he knew to do was to tell me to 'calm down-which isn't what you say to someone who is already agitated and is attempting to do exactly that.

People who are supposedly college educated need to understand the inner workings of the brain.  If they can give a rapist who destroyed a 12-year-old girl in Haditha while in American military uniform the benefit of the doubt, I expect the same courtesy.

I don't think he was particularly pleased when I said that to him, as it might have hit him in the nay-nays.

Good, as that's what he would deserve for demonstrating the idiocy to fight in Iraq in the first place-if he's actually guilty as charged.

When asked by Administration what would prevent me from having a meltdown, I replied, "I worked
with an autistic dude for nearly ten years."

Don't give me this 'professional dialogue' bullshit.  We're all human beings, damn it.  We're not robots.

If telling people off on the phone makes me a son of a bitch, that's fine by me.  That's why they get paid the big money.  However, reaching out to someone who has suffered trauma that is decades-old is completely different, and I actually have compassion for that.  This is because I know exactly what it's like.

I know what it's like to relive past trauma in a church.  In fact, I just experienced it.
I know what it's like to have no friends.
I know what it's like to be so fucking depressed that you want to eat iron with a gunpowder chaser.

I survived, and I want those people to know that they can do the same.  Sometimes, one has to be a bigger bastard than the one who is bullying them, as that's how one gets another to leave them alone.

There really is no right or wrong anymore, as the 'guardians of morality' are more corrupt than we are.  Therefore, one should throw all guilt aside and do what comes naturally.
Trust me, you'll be the better for it.