I'm not spinning like an acorn anymore (thanks, Ace Frehley), but it's not leaving my mind-no matter what I do or the way I numb it.
No, I'm not drinking, but I do engage in other self-destructive behaviors-which I wish I had more willpower from which to refrain. Chief among them, I know that my Dodge Dart can go well over 100 mph, and that's not just a bad idea. That's seven shades of stupid when you do that at the age of 47.
By the way, I never did that with her in the car-again, seven shades of stupid.
It's quite certain that she's thinking about this, too. This is because she is not the kind of woman who doesn't keep her word. She knew that I was worried about this possibility, because I voiced it.
Love is love and it shouldn't be interfered with-by anyone. It's ironic that somehow the one who abused her passed the test and I didn't. This has happened throughout the centuries, as parents broke the hearts of their children by making prejudicial decisions or by choosing not understand the suitor's experiences.
What did Jesus say about this? Well, I (as almost always) have the answer to this question:
Matthew 7:1-5 1"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
The Christian left has warned that the judging of others is one of the reasons why people detest Christianity. It also holds the position that preachers who preach against greed, but have plenty besides cause people to doubt the validity of the Bible.
Even though I detest religion, I know Jesus was the Son of God, simply by all of the scientific and historical evidence. However, that's not enough for many Christians when you have a relationship with their daughters. I came to the understanding that my rather lousy relationship with God the Father played into this-never mind that Christianity is what made me suicidal in the first place before I was even thirteen-years-old. This happened via social ostracization, serious degrees of bullying, and the Church's willingness to ignore my cries for help against the spiritual violence which happened to me.
Jude 22 New International Version (NIV)22 Be merciful to those who doubt.
Kiss, Black Sabbath, Ozzy Osbourne, Ronnie James Dio, Rainbow, Motley Crue, Iron Maiden, and Twisted Sister prevented my suicide, okay? Enough said.
Here's proof of that.
The Church continues to experience problems in this area, as Christians judge actions without considering motivation. Okay, I shouldn't have played my Black Sabbath album in the sanctuary last week. However, Sabbath prevented my suicide after the Church nearly caused it thirty-five years ago, and Christianity, not only nearly caused it, but did nothing to prevent it.
Hey, I'm a sinner like everyone else, but at least I try to understand why people are the way the are. I guess we can thank liberalism and my psychology degree for that one, huh? Parents need to consider the emotional consequences of their daughters before allowing their prejudices to ruin their lives.
Love is love and you're not supposed to buy it. While Christians say that money isn't everything, that position quickly changes when they see a guy at the door who holds the hand of their daughter.
What did Paul write about wealth in 1 Timothy 6:17?
"Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment."
What did Paul write in 1 Corinthians 7:9 about sex and marriage?
1 Corinthians 7:9 New International Version (NIV)"9 But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion."
Oh, and as for my doing this for the money is concerned, as 1 Timothy 6:5 points out:
New International Version
"...and constant friction between people of corrupt mind, who have been robbed of the truth and who think that godliness is a means to financial gain."
Remember that money is the problem in the first place. I still certain that I wouldn't be approved of even if I became a millionaire. Funny, but I could have sworn that both Paul and Ronnie James Dio agreed that money had nothing to with love.
HYPOCRISY IS THE REASON WHY CHRISTIANITY IS DYING!The breaking of a daughter's heart comes at a price, so does breaking hearts of grandchildren, as that little girl cried and gave me one of the tightest hugs I have ever felt.
Christianity proves itself to be more phony as the days roll past because of those who sit in the pews. Hell will be filled with Christians, and I can prove it.
Matthew 8:11-12 11I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. 12But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth."
No one is ever good enough for a Christian parent. Remember that the man of whom they approved beat their daughter severely and he is still a negative force in their daughter's life, as well as the lives of the grandchildren-and that's not too bright, kids.
Any psychologist will tell you that.
Isn't that, right, Mr. Dio?
And Rabbi, what saith thou about my faith, since I accept the faith that I know you are God's Son?
Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move."Now, Rabbi, I struggle daily in my faith in You, and I despise Your Church because of its hypocrisy and judgments of others whom the members of the same choose not to understand. What of that? You saw what happened to me at church last week when I was physically threatened by one of the ushers, who said that he would: "kick your ass out of here."
Romans 14:1 1Accept the one whose faith is weak, without quarreling over disputable matters.
While we're on the subject, what about the use of foul language by a Christian-especially by an usher or an elder? Remember that he said he would throw my ass out, so I'm not the hypocrite here-especially in the midst of my pain. Now, I'm guilty, too. However, You saw me take responsibility for it.
James 3:9-12 9With the tongue we praise our LORD and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. 11Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.
Ephesians 5:4, New International Version
Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.
Okay, Lord. I admit that I'm also guilty of that-mainly because the deprivation which I have experienced has caused me to joke about the calmities of others. Now, while that's a sin, what is Your stance on my rather sick sense of humor?
Remember that he said he would throw my ass out, so I'm not the hypocrite here-especially in the midst of my pain.
Hm. It seems like my relationship with God might be better than people believe-even if I do blast Black Sabbath in the church parking lot-or even in the sanctuary, for that matter. Jesus knows why I do that, and He gets it-even though I don't understand everything about Him.
By the way, Christ has a message for you.
Matthew 5:7 New International Version (NIV)
for they will be shown mercy.
So, what about those who go to church every Sunday and judge people whom they don't understand?
Matthew 8:11-12 11I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. 12But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth."Oops!