Not only do I have to wonder what the second seizure did to me in 2007, but I now have to worry whether or not I have chronic traumatic encephalopathy, or CTE. While football and soccer players are known to have this condition, I have to check this out because I suffered numerous blows to the head when I worked at Walmart.
You see, the pallets broke-a lot.
If the information which I am currently reviewing from the Mayo Clinic is any indication, I think that I will take a pass on the autopsy, because that seems to be the only time to make said diagnosis.
I do not have cognitive problems at this time. However, my hands do shake and it’s harder for me to control my temper.
I try to control my impulses.
I am aggressive toward objects more than I am people-unless they don’t listen.
I have never been able to plan or execute executive function, so that’s nothing new.
I don’t drink or smoke (Phineas Gage became an alcoholic).
I gave up on the thought of committing suicide-years ago..
I become quite irate, but won’t physically attack. As for verbal attacks, that’s a different paradigm. Just don’t fuck with me, okay?
I have always had some motor impairment because of the meningitis, but my hands shake more often, so I must investigate.
There is a possibility that I may come up with this later in life because of the pallets which hit me in the head.
Yeah, God loves my ass, alright-enough to fuck me over more than once.
The best source for information on this is https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/chronic-tramatic-encephalopathy/symptoms-causes/syc-20370921.
This puts Proverbs 22:24 in perspective, does it not? This is the verse which tells the ignorant not to make friends with an angry man and to not hang around anyone who has a short fuse.
I have no remorse. I have done nothing wrong. I guess this goes back to a little thing which happened at church not too long ago. Then again, the person who interfered was once a cop-and we all know how bright they are-not very.